WHERE DID I GO WRONG, I LOST A FRIEND.....





It has been one week since shes gone. All that i can think off for this past whole week, was the times that we were together.


You were the only one who saw me growing from a young girl to who i am now. You were the only true best friend that i had since primary school. We were like sister's...We had so much fun laughing, having fun in school, going over to each others house,share our stories, GO ICE SKATING!!...Without u now, nobody can teach me a new skill, improve my ice skating...i can no longer hangout with someone whom i trust for these past 6 years. i dunno how i can live without my bestfriend by my side. I can't believe that you are now gone..i should have gone out with you that day, atleast i could see you for the very last time..Why did you have to go at this time? at this age? its not fair..why wasn't it me?





You gave me courage. Before i met you, i was the most quiet person that i have ever known in this world. But when i met you, i became more brave to do things and try new stuff.





I still remember graduation night when we were primary six. Even though we were not the prettiest girls of all, but it was the first time that i ever felt we were so beautiful . On that night, me,you and dira got our champion trophies for Griffithsian Idol...It was something that we have achieved together as bestfriends. I would never forget our primary school life together.

I still have so many things to say, but i think its too much...Mayb i'll post another day, all about the times that we had fun together and had ups and downs with.


I still have to go on with life even without you. You will always be in my heart forever.











You will always be my sister, my girlfriend, my bestfriend..I will never forget you Jasmine...May you rest in peace, and i will always pray for you..

I love you Jas....

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_u pieced them for me..i love you. 7:48 PM

What's her problem man...can't she just get her own life..pls larr i have more right to be with him..so what if u noe him before i did!! im his gf for gods sake! im so pissed off...stop flirting around will you!! i really hate her now la..who she think she is ah! all the guys in the whole world also u wan!! wa lao! if u were in my place, in my shoes, u wld feel damn hurt lyke i am ryte now!!! i cannot take this anymore...im not trying to keep him all to myself, but pls larr u shld understand! wat if a girl flirts with ur boyfriend!! i bet u will feel damn jealous ryte!! keep ur hands off him okae!! if i lose my patience and i see ur hands lying on him..i promise u that i will slap ur bloody face !!!! effin pissed off......


tell me that u love me, show me that u care.... ilooveeehakim hakimislooveee aidahlooveeeshakim hakimlooveeesaidah iminlovewithmuhammadnurhakim.......

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_u pieced them for me..i love you. 8:29 PM

Okae...lets talk abt yeaterdae..

Nothing much happened, but a few ppl didn't turn up in school...all the same excuse, leg cramp larh muscle ache lar...haha, all b'cos of sports day..so rie larh i made you come yesterdae, but i didn't force you seh..hehe, but the look on your face when ur in pain is so cute..haha. really.

after cca, danced our heart out cos we needed the practice. don want to screw up can? haha..the guys part damn funny like anything lar..haha.but cute..we stayed in scol till abt 7:30pm or so..ahmad can't stop talking to himself from like...6:45pm till 8 something..ahmad, relax lar, my life sucks too okae..sometimes i just feel that i wasn't meant to exist in this world..its because of me, everyone is experienceing their bad days(betul kan u?? hehe)..but i keep it all to myself ahmad..know when is the time to let it out and when not to..okae?if got problem can talk to me and ur bradder ryte...we always go home with you...but, as long as u dun talk toooo much, he won't get irritated with you..like wat happened yeaterdae.

first tyme i see him cry..actually a few tymes readi..i noe u u were feeling that way even before u told me..so sweet to see a guy crying because of friends..hehe.aniwae, im always here when u need a shoulder to cry on..am i wrong to sae that?? haha..just don feel bad abt it kae..i alwaes feel lyke tat..but nvr let it out..or wat u call, the patient me...yea.

Later at 3pm meeting camp com at pasir ris..yay!! we are going to east coast to rackee!! must rmb to bring camera..Mr david n Mr Lee not coming..hmm, hope we get the ryte spots for amazing race activities..mayb we can chill at mac after that..we can also talk abt the locations again..hopefully we finish soon. i wanna go parkway with mom and i dunno who else going..nvm, tell them go later..5 more hours till i go out..dunno wat to do man!! mayb go eat first larr....i think i will blog again like...1 hr later or something..

dada!! -u are my one and only-

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_u pieced them for me..i love you. 8:42 AM

8 more daes to LBC camp...and 7 more daes till he goes overseas..how sad..well i can't expect him to always be there beside me...as well as behind and infront..(okae i noe im starting to crap again)...our preperation for camp has been going smoothly thnx to my fellow prefects...i feel that our relationship as frens as well as partners working together has bonded...we have become closer, able to communicate better with each other and give opinions very well...i will like to take this oppurtunity to thank... Sec 4, Atiqah and not forgetting our mentors Joey(Head) and Bernard(Vice-Head)...Sec 3, Wei lin and Khairul, also not forgetting Ahmad Fahmy and Muhd Fahmi..you guys who stayed back late with us, to help out in the mass dance and stuff...you guys were all there when we needed our laughing medicine, to get rid of all the stress, as we reach nearer to the actual camp...My dear sec 2 babies, Cynthia and Irfan. You guys are so cute..hehe. i really hope that u 2 will take this camp as an oppurtunity to polish up ur leadership skills and be better leaders in the coming years in Coral Sec..(who noes you can be the next head or vice-head)im really counting on you 2, to bring up the standard of the prefectorial board once me and all the current sec 3 prefects step-down next year..

I hope that LBC camp will be a great success, as its the first ever time that we are organising the camp... *i love you all*

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_u pieced them for me..i love you. 8:27 AM

Wahh...didn't notice that i haven't been blogging since there was piles and piles of homework every single day. i don't get teachers nowadaes... i end up delaying almost every piece of homework..but its not just me. almost my whole class delay homework. atleast i don't get scolded all by myself. All for one, One for all..that's 3/7..CNY was so fun..but ate too much , then now like so fat. haha. played blackjack on the first and second day.hehe. then celebrated kimberly's 16th birthdae on the second day. cake from swensen'...Oh-so-nice cookies and cream...yumyum..hehe.

other than that...alot of things have happened. i think that im the only one who notice that. know why? because...they don't noe that they are doing it to me. i feel so sad that i always get left out in certain stuff..like the recent "thing"...hmm..made me lyke an outsider..doen'st mean that im not in the thing..they can make me feel left out u noe..and lyke everytime in scol, they nvr talk to me, i think they noe that they are doing it...on purpose. because of this one thing, i feel that our friendship has drifted apart. but i noe it will go back to normal. i noe it. i just want the old them back...really...

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_u pieced them for me..i love you. 1:15 PM

sorie ppl for not updating...

been at my cuzzin's place for the pass few daes..

alwaes go out...went to vivo on monday..and orchard yesterday...

walao..no more money readi..

aiyoo!!hehe..jus to make sure u see this..FiFi!! link me larr...but if u no blog tell mie..hehe.then i wont go pastering u..hehe

hmm..training at Valhall just now was so sucky..Philip's a gay old uncle..whahah gay bum!! quote from philip to nisa, "oh, ur prettier then faris" haha..we were laughing our asses out when he said that larr..philip gay la...he wants to be red headed, with a nice ass..WTH!!pathetic larr philip...

faris can't stop bugging me la.."aidah!!!aidah!!!aidah!!!"taktaudiamke!! for two hours seh throughout the whole match...n can't stop oleh-ing ppl..hehe...but its a good skill..yep..

i made the headlines todae...by scoring 2....2!! own goals...sorie larr babes. hehe.but quite funny larr..haha..oh yes!!! there is a new vending machine installed in valhall!! we were the first ones to use the vending machine..how fun..but the drinks oh so mahalnakmampos!!actually not really larrr..but to me it is.philip, u so bad sia..cheap2 cannot arh. we ready pay like $30/hr for 2 hours...then water so expensive..wth..hehe. ur a pathetic wannabe red headed white guy u noe!! alah..dun cry la..we dun hate u FYI...u just so gay la..ahaha.its good u admit it.

oh well, tmr got prefct meeting..ehe..u noe wat that means?? it means another moment of love that i've been waiting for..eh, wat the hell i talking abt..haha.mr.chua a.k.a sushi man, gonna talk crap again,and funny stuff..

can't wait for tmr..hopefully he knows abt it..hopefully larr..heh.can somebody tell him??

ruban..u always nvr pick up the phone. must i call u 14 times again then u will pick up?haha

skipping cca tmr..hopefully teacher nvr scold me..but fridae i coming..yea.so, watever larr...

hais..suddenly no mood to talk oredi..why ah? i think i noe.

hmm..will somebody talk to me?pls ah...ish!!

i dunno wat to talk..mayb later i'll post again..tata!!

-"im afraid if there's no tmr.i fear death.if it really happens, jus wanna noe that i love you, more then what you think.Mmmuah!!!ehehe..."-

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_u pieced them for me..i love you. 9:25 PM

todae..

todae...

todae...

went to take my results for skola ugama exam..got 3rd. ahaha.

wat to do my cuzzin and luttfiyah more cleverer then me..both from TKGS..

ahaha..aniwae, this was my last dae..next year not continuing animore..

gonna miss my ustazah's..they the best larr..and my fwens..

sab,lutt,sharifah n amir...

amir- next year dun make so much noise in class okae?? ahaha.ustazah mrh nanti..mati baru tau..ahaha, noe u gonna miss me larr...(as a fren la!)

sab-try to tolerate wif amir's nonsense kae...i noe u very irritated wif him..ehehe, i just went into the same class wif u again this year after how many years...but have to separate again..sedih..my fault. frens alwaes yea..

lutt-stay clever alwaes..dun stop talking to wawa abt all those anime stuff..especially fruits basket n inuyasha..n all those tkGian stuff..abt cikgu zaini getting mad for no reason everytime etc..ehehe..anime lover's forever!!

sharifah-stay chearfull,bright n colourful alwaes..dun forget to wear ur bright clothes every week when u go for ugama classes!! sure to bring a smile on everyone's face..definitely for wawa...ehehe

well..now sitting in front of the computer..waiting for some miracle happen for him to kol me or something...have been waiting for u to kol for the pass few daes...i miss u so much la..


-words can't describe how i feel abt you
only heaven knows how much i do.....-

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_u pieced them for me..i love you. 10:01 PM

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